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I promoted this band when their first CD came out. I’m glad to see they made it past that first CD mark. Most bands (rock bands) on roadrunner records don’t make it past CD #1 ! check out the song above its pretty funny and good as well.
-Josh
You can’t change the past but you can grow from it. I’m taking it upon myself to grow from things I’ve gone through, and things I have done to others. I tend to live in the past where nothing changes and everything stays the same. It just doesn’t work because people grow up and they change. No one stays the same no matter how much they want to it just doesn’t happen. There has to be change in our lives. It’s the only way to adapt and continue to live the very short lives we have.
I’ve heard so many times that life is so short get out there and live life. I was standing in line the other day buying something at target, and this older lady was in front of me with a ton of items for St. Patrick’s Day. I looked at the items and got a chuckle from them and she looked at me and said “They are for a friend”.
I replied to her “Sure…” she then said, “Life’s to short. You have to have some fun in life.” I hope she has a great time with all those things she bought. I need to take from this to have some fun but not too much.
If you spend too much time in the past you never will move forward. Walt Disney use to say “Keep moving forward…” He believed in a constant state of change. With out change things will always stay the same and nothing will get better. Its hard for me to change but on the other hand its hard cause I have never really tried to hard to change. But I believe now it is the only choice available at this time. I need to change and I need to do it A.S.A.P.
People are here and put into our lives for a reason. We learn to be better people, and change in many ways. Sometimes this is for the better sometimes its not. Things never stay the same. Some people are in our lives for a lifetime and some are just passing by. No matter how hard you try to hold onto the past it won’t help look towards tomorrow and soon you might meet another person you can learn much more from. I can no longer wait here and hope things will go back to the way they were. I can however look back at all the great times I had and also the bad times and grow from it.
The time for change is now! I must leave the past where it is and live in the now. Life’s to short its time to start living.
Thank you to all the people that have been in my life thus far.
-Josh Speer
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This has to be one of the best things ive seen from the onion. check it out now.
-Josh
On the road to becoming myself i have been taking a few days to get through the bullshit that is life. Im surrounded by people with the idea of what life is and how its supposed to be. In this overcast of how im supposed to be im getting covered in what is only known, and not in the thought of new ways of thinking. Shadows cover any thought that is different from what is known and what is true. Im just realizing everyone is taught to take the easy path because it is the only one that is known better then the roads less traveled. People that are considered outcasts, Crazy or just different are the ones that look at the same thing being done and think of a new way to do it. And i feel like im bursting at the seems to be different but im surrounded by so many of the same people i cant break free from this mold. It scares me in some ways that things dont work the way you want them too but when im told constantly things cant work the way im thinking and im not given a chance to even try it scares me more that i cant trust myself to take the risk. I cant! is tossed around in my head to much to even think anything else lately. The thoughts of failure plague me and its so funny when a song can point out soemthing so clear i didn’t even see or think before :
I can’t seem to change you or open up your eye’s
So go on and sing your sad, sad song.
I don’t even blame you the routine is nice.
Nine to five and a suit and tie.
Fear of failure a comfort zone is killed.Braise your self’s and give into the moment.
I’ve got nothing to lose.
So what is your excuse?
Save yourself’s your dying in slow motion.
You got nothing to lose.
So what’s your excuse?Life can’t seem to teach you the safe caught is right.
So stray from the fight.
Don’t you realize?
The daydreamers nightmare is to never even try.
You kind of slipped by.
Fear of failure a comfort zone is killed.
You cant fail if you don’t even try. And i need to start living by those words cause i do have a fear of failure. I have all these ideas that are so great but i have this fear they will be stolen or hell not even made. And if i try i wont do a great job on them. So i type out the ideas and jsut sit on them talk about them and hype them up and never deliver with an end product. I cant stand doing this anymore. I need change and i need to be who im meant to be, i cant be who other want me to be. I cant do the things they have done, i cant take the main road i have to take a detour down the road less traveled. If it was easy everyone would be doing it. Ive realized why most people dont do what they really love or dream about doing. they cant invest the time and effort it takes to reach or achieve that dream. I came to this conclusion while watching an infomercial for some new workout tape. I can see how people wanting to loose weight would get this and start out doing the things instructed on the tape but then stop becaue it takes time and effort. The real question i and everyone has to ask themselves is my dream worth the time and effort. Do i really want this? My answer is FUCK YES !
I’m going to Keep Moving Forward and not let others influence me to stray off the road that leads to my dream.
One of the ways i think i tend to stray is i get excited about something new ive come up with and i have to tell some one about it or ill burst.
Being your self takes time, its not an overnight kind of thing. So im dedicated from this day forth to being me and accomplishing my dream no matter how hard it is.
“I am a product of my placement”
-Josh
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I’m taking a break from friends and games. Ive been getting off track from my main goal and tend to drop things im doing to hang out with friends and it seems lately im not getting anything started or done, so im taking a break from friends and games from Sunday 1/4/09 - Saturday 1/10/08 time to put shit in order and get back on track. I’m trying to be different and change my routine and mix it up and this is a big step for me. I get distracted very easily and i need to learn to juggle things and make time for everything and getting this idea storm out of my head is my top priority. so im off to write, write, write !!!!
-Josh
My new years resolution is to be myself. Not to act or try to fit in with people that wont like me for me. Im not an actor and im not going to act anymore. I am me and thats all i can be. With that said. Im loving life right now im having such a great time. Im working on story and character development for an upcoming project that i hope to have out before april or in april. Ive been working on this idea for awhile and its starting to take shape like never before. from story to the characters i think this is going to be something amazing. I cant wait to share it with the world. All thats left to say in this post is enjoy life and never stop being who you really are not what other want you to be. and “Keep Moving Forward” -Walt Disney
(the graphic is above is something i did today it has a controller hidden in the top and it says Happy New Year 09)
-Josh
Im switching over from Comcast to DishNetwork and i didnt think i could have a harder switch. Im doing this switch because im ready for an HD package and comcast makes you pay out the ass for their version. I ordered the TurboHD service on Wednesday and ever since ive been playing tag with them trying to confirm i ordered the service and no they cant just send an email, but no i have to talk to them over the phone. for one thing i hate phones the other i hate AT&T ever since they bought cingular but thats a whole other story.
I get crappy reception in my house and i never recieve calls and it sucks so much… well back to my story. i sent a long email to dishnetwork telling them my troubles with their service and i havent recieved any kind of order conformation. Funny thing i get an email that says :
“Thank you for your e-mail. In order to research your account, we will need more account information. Please provide us with the phone number listed on your account and your account number so that we may further assist you. For immediate assistance please call our Customer Service Center at 1-800-333-3474 at your convenience.”
So of cousre i hit my self over the head many times trying to get a hold of how stupid these people really are. I went into long detail of my problem telling them i dont have an account and never got any form of conformation except the phone calls that went straight to my voicemail. and even better they just say they are calling to confirm i ordered the service and they dont offer a number to call back at all. the first time i got a number was today in that email.
So i call the place up and its one of those voice automated systems. and it takes forever for it to select what i want and it turns out i end up with the wrong thing and bam im back where i started. even calling them doesnt help. when i asked to be transfered to a different department they said they cant do that. so i asked her to email me the direct number to the support and never recieved that email. its like i have to work super hard for them to take my money and im not sure what to do now. I really want to get HD programing but im not sure how much now.
-Josh
Happy new year everyone. I spent the night playing Halo 3 with a buddy of mine that lives in Australia. We had a bunch of fun. We kept making some jokes about the time difference. Australia is a whole day ahead of us so it had already been 2008 for him. i would make the joke its so weird playing with some one from the future… Its was all good. Well happy new year and look forward to some new discovery’s on the net. Ive been labeled a cool hunter and im going to continue to find new things that catch my eye. Every Tuesday i will post a band of the week ! and through out the week ill post other things. Well enjoy and have fun in 2008 !
-Josh